Feli ♥ cious

i had an odd mood from morning until now. i was wondering what's wrong with me. yea, i know there's something wrong with me. but can anyone tell me what's the exact thoughts in my mind? *frown  I woke up this morning, i was still in happy mood because i was kept thinking to go to cinema for 2012, but my cousin was busing with the canteen's day which will held on the day following today, so she can't go with me. *sad  After that breakfast, i went to replenish groceries with my mom. when i was choosing something on the track, she told me something very suddenly which made me had a very strange feeling and also very difficult to answer. so, i decided not to give any responds and continue walking here and there to get my stuff. i was driving alone after done the groceries, sitting in the car with a very high volume hit song, it's very high but my mind and heart was very cold. i have no idea, my brain was so blank and kept asking myself, WHY? fine, maybe i have already know the answer, or maybe i have to do that, or maybe there's still have another way to solve it, who knows, right? however, that's not what i intended, i have my own thoughts, i wan to be myself but not the one who live under-arranged. i think no one would like to be arranged. *sigh  okay, it's saturday, supposed not to be so moody, let's get some music and have a nice day. i called my cousin and told her i wanna go to chs have a look, because tml is the canteen's day, what a big day in chs, a special day in chs that i loved the most. i walked around the campus and booths, everyone was busying with their stuffs, they looked so busy but they enjoyed so much. somemore, it's raining and don't you think that's very fun! a bunch of friends playing in the rain, wow~ *giggle  mm.. this special day let me thinking of my classmates, suddenly miss them so much. most of them are studying in taiwan and part of them are working now i think. seldom contact with every one in class but only few of them who close with me. but every cny we will have a gathering and that time we can at least meet everyone and have fun like when we were still in high school. and that's why i still feel very happy because tml few of my classmates are going back to chs and we'll have a meet! can't wait to see them. xD when this comes to my mind, my happy mood comes back again. well, honestly, i was trying so hard to get back my gay mood, i really hate the emo moody. so, i kept telling myself nothing will beat me down, i'm still the strong girl that always is. i have to encourage myself and console myself as there's nobody can do it for me. so, in many times i will give myself some quotes and tell myself, " you have to learn from these by yourself, nobody helps you and nobody will be there for you when you facing problem." sometimes, i will think like if i can influenced by someone or elder ppl, it's must be very uncommon however seemed like there's no one. that's why i get used to encourage and support myself, since i was a kid. *wink  but should i happy for that? *doubt so  fine, what an odd day i had! duh!! forget about it. tomorrow will be a good day.. hope every nice thing can come toward to me.. please god.. bless me! xD weeeee~ i'm going to watch midnight show with my sister now.. poker king.. mm.. actually i wanna watch 2012, but surely full house so better make it on another day.. =(