Feli ♥ cious

Planning never catches changing.

the only thing I wish it comes true which is everything goes smoothly.

but the god never let it comes true perfectly.

I always have positive thinking and I keep telling myself it's gonna be positive this time.

mind set is a very important thing to everyone.

it controls your thinking and attitude and so on.

I believe I will have a good year in 2011.

I do really believe. 

please do happens some good things on me in 2011.

the feelings are really sucks when you standing at the junction and don't know where to go.

I want to find back the lost way

I want to find back the missing braveness

I want to find back the real me

what to do 

when you don't know

 what to do.

tell me if you know.

It seems like I'm getting lazy to update here and I know it's my bad. Well, christmas is around the corner, I'm kinda excited, because I heart* christmas so much! But, I have no idea where to go on next week, was thinking to go SG right after the pc fair, who knows I was too tired and too much happenings so I decided to delay the trip. So now, I'm still very confused. I wanted to go KL and SG, next friday is christmas eve and I haven't go to both places. wth. >.< Here comes a question, should I go to SG on tmr and come back on tuesday with mom? then go to KL on wednesday/thursday, so that I can spend my chirstmas in KL. Good idea? *thinking* 


If you've read my previous post then you should know I did mentioned that one of my friend going to Brunei for goods. Yesh, she's yichiam and she left this morning. All the best to you and hope to have a chance to visit you in Brunei! Well, I'm actually quite envy her, she tried to makes her dreams come true, and apparently, she made it. went to korea for study tour and the highlight part is to get a job at overseas, she got it and she's on her way to achieve it. I think lotxa people hope to get this kinda chance, so do I. haha. hhmm.. who know I will be the next one? lol. ( opps! I should have say it this way : I can get what I want! I believe I can do it!...  yea, Law Of Attraction!! ) 




I think I have to post one for the Law Of Attraction, this is really a good topic! But give me some time, I have to read finish the book only can share with you guys! :) 

People come around and goes around. You will never know who is gonna stay/leave. And sometimes, it happened out of our expectations. One of my friend who just back from convo. She is lucky. She got a chance for interview, right after the convo. After the 2nd interview, she got the job and going to fly to Brunei. Undoubtedly, she got a job in Brunei, and she might leaving here in 2 weeks time. I was unexpected surprise when I got her call, yet, I happy for her. Never knew it would be so fast, but you know, life is so happening. Anyways, all the best to you and take care, friend! 

Hey my dear readers, I AM BACK!! Well, it's one week exactly I back from BKK (19.11.2010 ~ 22.11.2010). =) Yeap, I was procrastinating, obviously. I have the thought to update here, and never wanna abandoned here, but I was just too lazy to move all the photos from cameraSSS to my lappie. ( cameraSSS = my dslr, my sister's digital camera and my mom's too! ) So have a guess, how much of photos I have to transfer to my lappie. >.<  Of course, I have done the selection, I would only upload few photos which I think they are nice. So, now, let's the photos tell you guys the story. =) 

I had a great week with my sister, friends and cousins! I went to KL on last Tuesday night and back to hometown on Friday night. The story is kinda long, and I think none of you wanna listen the whole story, so, what I can say is this is indeed a shopping cum foods trip! My sister, Celeste and me were nonstop of eating around, and I was like a driver, sending them to the place they wanted to go. And having say so, I have totally no extra time to meet my friends, so sorry about that, I ffk-ed you guys! Still, I had a fun time with that two shopping queens! 

I countdown the day, everyday and every second. I'm so looking forward to the day, I don't know what I'm going to do when the day is coming, but I just hope it comes as soon as possible. Maybe you gonna ask me if I don't like the current situation, yup, undoubtedly, I'm waiting the day coming and have a change. I want to do something memorable in my life. I mean some experiences that I yearned to have in my life. The one always on the top of list would never happened in my life, I know, fine, I substituted another one, this is what I can do for myself. Basically, I've checked a lot but I can't do anything right now, still, the day is not yet coming that's why I can only countdown everyday. Please come to me... 


I know sometimes I like to being secretive, well, most of the time. I used to be like that, since i was a kid. I don't like to tell all my things to others, even family or sibling or my close friends. I found it's hard to say out and the main problem is, I don't trust anyone. I know this is very bad if whoever beside me heard this, but seriously, I scared to make a clear breast to others, I feel unsecured, I admit. And I protect myself from not getting hurt, that's why I don't tell/say much to not-so-close-ones. I'm a friendly person, but if you try to reveal my private affairs, don't blame on me being rude to you or perhaps I will hate you, if you don't believe me, you can have a try. If you think I'm a weirdo, yeap, probably I am. I won't touch yours so please don't do the same thing to me, respect is the main one that I care the most. 


I'm in the moody mode. Sometimes, I have no idea why I have such feeling all of a sudden. Alone? Not really, I get used of the loneliness, but sometimes I hate it too, when you hope someone is beside you but at the end you're alone at that moment, you know how it feels like? It's sucks! And now, my feelings are mixed with sad and disappointed and maybe angry? What a complicated feelings. I'm doing brainwashing, but the more I think, the more disappointments I have. Life is so expected, you never know what you gonna get at the end, we try our best to fight for everything, ends up, what's the main thing we want for life? Everyone has different needs in their life. what exactly I want for my life? Follow my own or follow the elders' ? I feel so helpless, unsecured, where's the shoulder I can lean on?  Walk alone on the road, the wind blowing on my face, I have to keep walking, despite the night is cold and dark. 


I'm okay, I'll be okay, I want to be okay... 
Everything is gonna be okay.. 
I have faith on myself.. 

Well, it's 3am plus and I supposed in my dreamland now, but obviously I'm not. I felt so energetic after back from oldtown with a friend, and I'm so hungry now, because I forgot to take my dinner, which mean I only had a cup of white coffee since noon time. Opps! I just realized that I actually had a cup of espresso this afternoon, ok fine, now I know why I'm sitting in front my lappie and blogging instead of "enter" to my dreamland. Thanks to the caffeine, shall I ? o.O Since I have nothing to do,so I would just do some writings. Time flies indeed, it's November now, having said that, my favorite month is coming soon, you know which is it? Yeah, no doubt, it's December aka Santa Claus's month!! I'm so excited of it, how I wish tomorrow is the Christmas's Eve. I want to have a session for exchange Christmas gifts! I'm so looking forward! :) 


I have a complicated feeling when the November is approaching. I can't explain the feelings but I know it's not a good one. tense? worried? or happy? If it has mixed with happy, I guess tense would be more than that. Happy comes first but tense and worried never stop. I have a plan, and I hope it goes smoothly. Blessed me! 






p/s: who wants to be my travel-mate? =D

我　可不可以要你们不要回来
我　可不可以要你们等我过去


那是不可能事情  　虽然很希望可以把不可能变成可能
曾经的幻想　却始终没有办法实现　
原来努力了不一定可以用有　运气还是掌握了一切


也许等到机会来了　你们却已不在目的地
也许这个机会从来就不属于我　　
盲目的一厢情愿　愚昧的以为它就在不远处




把你放在我心里最深的地方　从今以后不再提起你
你将会变成我的回忆　一个来不及完成的回忆


谢谢你　让我曾经有过那么美丽的憧憬

很多事情不说出口并不代表没有发生过
不说出口只是不想再提起　过去了就让它过去　为何还要提起
每个人都有过去　有些人喜欢把过去的事情挂在嘴边　
但我却不喜欢别人去碰我的过去


原来再次被唤起想要忘记的事情　 心是那么的痛.

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