我老了，不是年龄而是心态 。随着年龄的增加，对很多事情的看法也不一样。对自己身边的事情、对事物的看法、对钱财方面，这些东西的看法也不一样，改变了很多。如果你说我现实，很抱歉，是这个现实的社会教会了我们， 现实的社会讲求的不只是金钱，还有很多， 身份地位人际关系，这些都是踏进社会必学的东西，不管你多不愿意，身不由己还是要学会，如果你要立足，那么付出多少的努力就会得到你要的，社会的现实教会了很多书本上学不到的。我自认，在过去的四个月里，学到了也看到了现实的很多事物，也对金钱越来越敏感，不是贪钱，但是真的看多了， 没有钱你就什么都不能做，成长的其中一项就是让你去知道钱的重要性，小时候长辈告诉我们钱难赚，都比不上当你做工了亲身体会。从小到大，我知道钱不是万能，但是没有钱就万万不能，所以钱很重要，尤其是我看到很多事情发生在我周围的，更让我体会到金钱是如何的摆布一个人的人生，你是大富大贵但也可以一夜之间变成一贫如洗，你也可以什么都不是但一夜间变成暴发户。看到很多人为了钱，健康丢了，六亲不认，什么状况都有。每个人对金钱的概念不同，管理钱财的方式也不同，得到的金钱当然也不同，从来不会有人嫌钱少，但是要拥有多少金钱人们才会满足？
我承认，我有点贪心，还有些未完成的事在等着我去完成，慢慢来，我一定可以的，虽然现在是无业游明但是我很努力不放弃任何一个机会。当你对自己的新人生的开始有目标，做任何事都有冲力的时候，你就会觉得辛苦一点是值得的。
不同的年龄层有不同的‘长大’也可以说是成长，思想上的长大，心态上的长大。处在这样的“成长”阶段，不是每个人的思想与心态都一样，要找到和自己思想心态一样的人沟通不容易，越来越找不到可以谈心的人，也许自我保护的心态要是改不了，也许害怕了去和人谈心，但是我不讨厌这样的成长，必经之路，如果你觉得我不一样了，那是因为成长改变了我 思想心态。
加油 我知道我可以的
结束了四个月的工作，我知道对其他人来说很突然，因为除了家人，不多身边的朋友知道我的决定，或许有些人以为我已经找到了另一份工作，但是并没有，就这样我选择回到自己的地方，当然我希望快点接到消息。
四个月的上班生活真的学了很多，但是心里就一直想回来，也不知道是怎么了，或许想家了吧。期间，因为工作的关系认识了一些人，给予的意见有些让我懊恼，至少有三个人以上提议去做insurance agent, 其实并不稀奇，只是相同的提议却一直出现，有些懊恼，我的脸看起来有“保险脸”?! hahaha.. 之前听了一个talk,其实有点动摇，但是又说不上那种想法，可能我还没有认真地想。
真的不知道是什么原因，就想回来发展，我不后悔这四个月的学习，踏出社会对待的人生观也不同了，想要的东西也越来越多，越来越不一样。接下来把手上的东西处理好，月底应该就会回来，但愿一切都顺利。
The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want.
To change your world all you have to do is manage your thoughts and feelings on the inside of you, and then your whole world changes.
This is the second months. Well, everything is so far so good. I can't say this is a tough job, but nothing is easy if you want to earn a living, there's no free lunch in this world, right? What kind of life you want, just go and fight for it. The working life is still ok to me, I'm actually quite enjoying. So far, I've learned a lot, hell lots! Anyways, all the best to myself, hopefully I cant achieve the targets that I've set to myself. *finger-crossed*
Even thought I've got the P1 broadband, but still seldom sitting infront of laptop and checking fb like what I used to do before. I would rather get more sleep after work, or relax myself, soaking myself with the music... So, is this the so-called "working life" ? Maybe have to talk more during working hours, that's why I quite tired of talking after work. The most thing I love to do after work is.. stay in the room and doing my own stuff. That's great! ....... err, but is that really good? As there's one good friend told me, "go experience something different in life.." o.O which means, I shouldn't always stay in the room....?! hmm... *shrug*
thanks for your caring. just remains the same.
I don't know what's on my mind now. Nervous? Excited? I have no idea, or maybe I'm just too tired that's why I don't know the status of my mood now. So, I've been waiting for the day so long, but I have no any feelings right now. The time is rush, but I have no choice, don't even have more time for relax a while before I start the new life, as there's lot of friends in / coming back to bp, however, I'm gonna start the OL life soon, oh to be exact, it's next monday. I done with the final on May, and I start the OL life on July, this is freaking fast, right? Which means in the past one month, I was like 1) send the resume to companies ; 2) got the call, for interviewsss ; 3) I've been selected from the company WHOA~ where's my holidays? Nah, I don't really have a proper holidays and now I'm packing luggage and leaving the hometown for good. Phewww~ kinda tired but I'm so looking forward to the environment of the workplace, hope everything goes smoothly and all the best to myself! :)
"You should do it much better when others do not think you can do it." (quoted by FW)
I can do much better that others do not think I can do. BAHAHAHA! *fingers-crossed*
I had a super lucky saturday! I was so damn excited and till now I still can't control myself from the excitement! Let me tell you guys the whole story, give me 5mins!
- 前几天不知道哪个手痒的人破窗进入office, 损失惨重，给我知道是谁干的一定把他的手砍掉，咒他手痒一年！
Today is the last day. The first thought and only word popped out my mind was " FINALLY! ", and that's it. I'm not happy nor sad, the feeling was so complicated. This is what I longing but also the very sad case which might be never happen again, and I might have no chances to chase the one I want. Ok well, the sadness is more than the joyness. A lot of thinkings popped out in my mind since this morning and I was like a zombie, my mind was full of thoughts and it made me don't feel like doing anything but I hope there's someone can accompany me for a drink, coffee or tea or beers, whatever. Yup, I need a pair of ears, no need to say anything, not nagging. Perhaps, this is my destiny and I have to obey, I've destined to accept the fact and this is very clear that I can't get what I want like others, I gave up and I don't even dare to give myself any hopes, and this is gonna stop, I'm looking forward to the new life begins. I had a bad tempered today, I'm not in the mood, I felt down and emo, I don't feel like talking to others, I just want to be alone, I need fresh air to wake myself up from the unrealistic world. FML. sigh. You better have a good future, there're lotxa people around you and looking at you! damnit! >.< Okay, no worries, I will be ok after today.
“ Don't despair if you make no headway at present. When the right time comes, you will be bestowed with great assignment."
Honestly, I have no idea why it's just a piece of paper, but it made people get emo after reading it. I hold it for whole day and read it hundred times, so, tell me, it is good or bad one? The explanation gave me both sides answer. No true or fault, it's neutral, does it telling me follow my heart to do what I want, and don't get despair of the the current situation, the best yet to come?! Awww.. I'm so complicated, nah, it's emo. Darn you! Just a piece of paper, but it came out a lot of thinking in my mind. As what I said, just a piece of paper but it's so powerful.
No worries, I will be alright soon. Get a good sleep and everything will be fine.
The world is changed. Nobody wants to welcome the doomsday, but what if the day coming just like the movie '2012', what should we do? The answer is a big no. We have no abilities to stop it. It came without any alerts, even though it does, there'll still have a lot of people get hurt and homeless. People always said that, we're very lucky to be Malaysians. We have no earthquake, tsunami, volcano and etc. We're very safe if compare to other countries. Yes, I'm agree with this statement, and besides other issues, I do proud of being one of the Malaysians.
Sometimes, you can get a good suggestion or idea from someone during a talk. And that's what i need.
Whoa! just realized that I didn't do any writings at here for one month! okay, I was lazy and busy so caused me got no time and no mood to blogging. ;p Well well, here comes to February, time flies indeed.. which means the chinese new year is around the corner! Yeap, no doubts, tomorrow is chinese new year's eve, unbelievable! To me, the red packets are more important than gatherings/reunions, with families and friends. Don't you think so? That's why I don't expect too much for this coming new year as I only looking forward for gatherings/reunions with families and friends, especially those back from overseas ones. But actually I've met up few of them before chinese new year. Everyone is getting more and more mature and most of them are fighting for their future now, I mean earn a living. Today was a busy day, and I tried my best to attend the primary classmate's gathering, it's been 10years I left primary school, OMGosh! >.< time fliesssssss! Due to the timing problem, there's only 6 persons attend this gathering. LOL! But, it's so funny and indescribable. I didn't meet them that frequently and few of them actually made me laughing out loud while talking about how were we being so childish during that time in primary school! mm.. I was thinking another 10years... How the gathering would be? Bring along partner and kids? whoa~
phew~ stop here first, to be continued! Time to bed now, gonna wake up early and do the very last preparation for the coming chinese new year, my mom has already gave me a to-do-list! omg... ;p
Anyways, hope you guys have a healthy, happy and prosperous new year! Gong Xi Fa Cai !!
