享受生命的乐趣，周遭带来的欢乐，一切顺其自然最好...
忽然发现很久没有用华文写blog了，心血来潮就来写一篇，用“心血来潮”确实有点怪，其实不就是没事情做，星期六晚上没地方去呆在家里对着电脑也不知道还可以做些什么，facebook已经玩到腻了，我又不喜欢玩game，msn开了一整晚却没有几个可以聊久的，也许很多都是在聊些没有point的东西所以都聊不久。歌也听了一整晚，我还是觉得很空，兜兜转转还是来了这里，写了这没有重点的东西，是不是很白痴？连我自己看了都想笑我自己。原来我还是会怕寂寞，原来我还是会怕一个人。可是当你越不像这样的时候，偏偏你就是身处在这样的局面。我试着找些事情来做，可是除了对着电脑，我还可以做什么？曾经喝茶喝到一晚有很多round,可是现在想要只有一个人跟我喝茶都觉得是一种奢侈。突然发现我好像没有朋友。精神寄托真的很重要，以前不会觉得生活很空，因为忙上课忙考试忙补习忙喝茶忙活动忙义卖会忙课室布置忙统考忙着享受校园生活，日子过得充实。现在却完全相反，也许以前一次过拥有太多的充实，老天爷觉得够了，是时候该让我体验一下无聊的日子。可能真的是这样吧。每天都希望日子快点过，每天都在算日子，真的很难过。我不要一个贫穷的日子，每一天应该是要过得富有充实，这样才值得。可是看着大家积极的在为未来努力，积极的享受生活所带来的乐趣，但我却只是希望时间可以快点过去，然后随便拿一张文凭，开始我的上班生活，开始赚很多很多的钱，去很多很多的地方。反正，在很多人的眼里钱才是最重要的，所以与其浪费时间读那些有得没得东西，倒不如早一点赚钱，可以去我要去的地方，可以作我要做的是，可以买我要的东西，不用问过他人，不用伸手要钱，不用听一堆的话，反正钱是我自己的，我要怎样都可以。反正还有一年的时间就读完，到时我就放弃读degree，反正以后用自己的钱去我想去的地方念更好，不用用家人的钱也不用听那些有得没得。虽然偶尔会想想如果我能和其他人一样那有多好，我知道很白痴，因为不可能，因为当你会去想的时候就表示那是不可能的。也许越在意的东西就越难接受放下。算了，我也认命了。 明年念完就出来做工，那么不是很快就要结束我的读书生涯，也许未必是件坏事。也许会觉得我变了，可能吧，虽然我不想变成这样可使没办法，环境不同。我承认我羡慕很多很多人，但又能怎样，不是你的东西就只可以羡慕，不是吗？这种一个人的晚上，就是会胡言乱语，不知不觉写了那么长，时间却还那么早。之前，一直很期待朋友们放假从世界各地回来，可是后来发现大家一直在讨论这我插不进的话题，确实有点难受，当然也一直问了我同样的问题，我却不知道要怎样回答，甚至有很多人误会，如果那些误会都可以是真的就好，结果还有点不好意思出去。不知道为什么，最近就特别想一个人去走走，随便一个地方可以旅行都好，可是我却没有钱，所以说钱很重要。谁要请我？可以赚钱又可以打发时间。虽然有人问过我要不要做freelance和保险，前者我不是很想时间不定时工钱不多，至于保险，我也不知道，没有很认真想过，再看吧，可能哪一天会做也不一定。我的未来，好像很模糊，看不到，想不到，规划不到，真的有点没有安全感，这种滋味很不好。人失去了重心，就好象小鸟的翅膀断了一边，怎么也飞不起，只能躲在一旁，至少有点安全感。嗯，写了那么长，到底在写什么？不知道，没事做，打发时间。起早八早冲好凉，换了衣服，头发也吹好，香水也喷了，accessories 也带好了，到最后却没有地方去，坐在电脑前晃了很久还是没有事情做，结果却在这里写了一堆垃圾。星期六就这样过了，明天还会是一样无聊吗？唉～谁没事做都可以来找我，disturb me... 
phew~ i'm so damn tired right now.. yes, i just back from 3days 2nights Port Dickson trip.. It's really a tiring trip that i really think that... walk too much, ride too much, swim too much, eat too much, and DRINK too much.. G-O-S-H~ but not enough sleep.. that's why i feel so tired and exhausted and i was slept like a log once i got in the car this afternoon... however, i still feel very sleepy even though i was sleeping in the car on the way home.. but well, i still quite enjoy the trip, it's really a not-so-bad trip.. the most important one is, i do really love the swimming pool in the resort.. my god! so romantic when u're swimming there, there's a swimming pool and beside the pool is a bar and there is a wooden porch with few wooden benches, lotxa of handsome angmo sitting there drinking beer..*sounds great,right?! xD swimming at there and looking at handsome angmo, i beg those girls can swimming at there for whole evening yea..*titter* and, the view from the swimming pool is so damn nice.. just imagine that u're swimming now but still can enjoying the sunset.. it's really thumbs-up,right? hahaha.. i told my mom and dad, i want to have a swimming pool at the backyard in my next new house.. but my mom replied me, " girl, wake up from your dream." -.-'' well, i knew it's impossible...LOL~ ok fine, i'm not going to write down what i did at PD, it's really time consuming, i'm a slacker, i admit, so let's the pics tell u guys.. pics are coming soon.. *well, lazy to upload right now....xD* as what i said, i'm a slacker... tired tired tired... some more, my knee is aching right now.. Darn! i told my mom that my knee is very painful and she asked me to go to have a rest and it's a small case only blah blah blah... Grr.. of course what! that's my knee not yours.. i'm the one who suffering the painfulness... *sob sob* -______- ok fine, i need a rest now... it's really damn painful, seriously.. sigh~
I read this short essay from a friend's blog. I think most of you guys did read this kind of story's gut before, and me too. But I still feel very touching and meaningful after I read it. Post to here and share with you guys, do enjoy the every words below.
