i'm here again.. sigh.. i supposed to do the revision for the next week final exams.. however, i have no study mood right now.. one week study week going to finish and the final exams is around the corner yet i haven't do any revisions.. what da fuck am i doing huh? or should i say that i have no any motivation to prepare for the exams anymore, since i back to here study... yea, i admit that i have changed a lot, it's not my style.. i don't really worry about my studies, i dun really care about exams, as long as i did read those notes and get passed in every subjects, that's enough for me.. sometimes, i would think that the examples and descriptions that i gave were much more detail from the notes.. so, honestly, i dun pay too much attention on class, even thought i did concentrated on the class, but after all just sitting at there and listen to da non-topic-lecture, yea, you'll know why i don't pay attention anymore, it's not i don't want to pay attention but just fucking boring at there.. some more, i don't really understand what da effing examples that the lecturer gave... aren't they think that we're still studying in elementary school or junior students? those examples are really sucks! yea, sometimes it's quite palia, but what's da point at last? everybody kept laughing but don't know what da hell was that, don't you think it works? the answer is N-O! so, i'd rather study myself, search for the example for myself to able answer those question papers... and also because of this i really don't care my result so much, as long as i got credit, and faster complete the course, to me that's enough.. no matter how merit result i got, it's doesn't important anymore, if i wanna continue to get a degree in the future, i still have to spend around 1 and the half year or maybe 2 years time to get a degree, because as i knew, the diploma certificate i got are not really recognized in quite many uni/coll... meaning that i have to retake few subject if i wanna continue degree in the future, i have to start from year2, don't you think it's very wasted my time.. well, i know it's still have 1year to complete the diploma course, but if after that other uni/coll really want to me retake, i think i won't do degree after that... maybe start my working life... as what u guys said, it's a gold coin society now, nonid study too much, money is more important than e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g... once u have money, you can continue study any course or even get a master or phd as u like.. sigh.. i know it's too reality.. but that's a true.. there are lotxa reality people surroundings me... i dun like people keep talking this kind of topic around me, i have my own thoughts and i know what should i do for myself, as my intelligence and ability (sorry, i'm not showing off, just have some confidence in myself), i have faith in myself that i can have a bright future for myself, but i know there are some people think that i can't... i dun care what others think about me, i just be myself.. i want to prove that i can make it.. i can do it.. as what a different family i had, i can't have any extravagant hopes, i told myself, if i want to study overseas or any other, everything i must do on my own account.. i promise myself that i must study oversea in one day, hence i have to faster complete the course now and see any chances out there for me to do so... sigh.. see, what a long post... apparently, i have no friends to pour out... everyone is busy.. everyone has their own thing to do.. nobody will cares what i say.. so, that's why i love my blog so much.. *wink* well, don't find me chat and ask me what's wrong with me after reading this post.. when i need someone by my side and give me some support, but there's no one out there, after i posted a blog and just come to ask me, please, this is not what i want..(sorry about that...) at the same time, i don't expect there will be lotxa comments here, i always just read others blog w/o post a comment so i don't think others will do that in my blog too... anyway, i'm ok, just need to relieve my feelings and sulks.. sigh.. but i seriously need some support and care.. ( after all, i still have to be myself, hey felicia tay, u're a strong girl, you always is the best one, independent and competent... buck up!! nothing can beat you down.. yea, i believe it!) xD
I need you
my friends
all of you
where are you guys now?
Nobody is there when you need someone badly.
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gambateh ^^
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