Feli ♥ cious

okay fine, at the end, i've met my doctor this afternoon. this time i found my doctor being so lenient to me. why i said so? mm... the first and second time she gave me 6 tablets for each day, for one week medication. but this afternoon she asked me to take the medication again and this time the medicine was totally different color. last time i had colorful pills, but now, it's khaki. one tablet for each day only, for one month. see, how nice she is. she has changed to another kind of medicine for me, the quantity is lesser than before but she makes the period for taking medicine longer than before. *frown*  so now i have to " one day one tablet " and have to go back to take medicine every month. how lucky i am. come, say congratulation to me. i will reply with a big smile and thank you so much. -____-'' shit! i hate those tablets!

*unsure*  see what answer i've got when i woke up tml morning. lol.

i'm doing revision right now.. International Business.. sounds like very geng, right? yup, not that easy actually, but not very difficult also.. mm.. what the hell i am talking huh? *shruggggg*  i dunno how much i've already absorb since i have been studying for whole day.... read and read and read... like hundred times.... but i still feel my brain is all blank... plan to major this subject as my degree if i have the chance in some day.. or maybe marketing? or maybe i don't have the chance... we don't know what's gonna happen on tml.. gosh.. i really need my study mood back.. i need motivation... i need pressure... i need stress... i need everything... i need support... support.... support... blah blah blah blah... okay, back to notes again.. continue... good luck to myself.... aza aza fighting..... you can do it, F !

PS:  3 entries in one day.... what's wrong with me? i'm seriously suffering from behavior disorder, supposed to do revision but i kept blogging around here.... STOP IT NOW!! back to notes!! 

i had a dream last night... i couldn't remember there're how many people in my dream but  i know most of my friends were there.. and those i really have a period didn't meet them but they also in my dream.. it's like a big party, a lot of food, BBQ-ing, chit-chatting... but everything was so real just i couldn't remember there're how many people.. yea, maybe i miss my friends too much.. i hate this kind of feeling.. it's not good at all.. everyone seems like really far away from me.. most of them are at different places studying now.. 50% in malaysia another 50% overseas.. we even hardly meet each other even thought they are in msia too.. they have their own campus life and seldom back to the hometown when the adapted the college life.. so, sometimes, we can only use msn to contact each other or maybe lost contact.. and those who oversea now..  one year only can meet one or two times, or maybe not even have the time to meet each other.. i really miss them a lot now.. like parents miss their children and hope to see them back from other countries, waiting for the day coming and pick up their children at the airport..  perhaps, i'm just like the parents, hope to see my friends back to here and have a gathering... as our age, supposed to have something fun with friends while studying... but, too bad, i used to had both but that's already passed.. i'm not a person who can't live without friends but when you used to be alone for such a long time.. i beg none of you won't miss your friends.. everytime i asked them, " when are u coming back?" most of them replied, " busying with assignments or exams ler, no time to go back!! " or " not sure yet, haven't book the air-ticket, i won't back so early."  see, everyone is enjoying their life.. i want to enjoy my life too, but tell me how to enjoy at here.. i really dunno where to get the answer.. like everyday doing nothing and have no the main purpose in your day, that's really a sad thing.. when you hope the days can fast forward to some day, but u have no idea when is the day, just like u're waiting some day coming soon, but seemed like there's no " some day " actually, because you yourself dunno when is it... perhaps, this is what i said, waiting the day all the friends back to here.. i know it's not a big deal for those who are enjoying the life now or with their stuff now.. i have no idea why i would suddenly have these feelings, strongly.. i found myself very funny.. maybe no one cares a friend like me.. right? hahaha.. 

i've been viewing lotxa albums from my friends.. i really really envy so much.. but i can't say my feelings out loud to anyone.. even i want to tell someone that i trust the most, but i always stop the conversation after few mins, because i always felt that i'm so silly to telling others these stupid things.. then i will stop talking anymore.. what a silly girl i am.. 

" because your lost your way now, so u have to find it back, and have a new start. " 
if it's so easy to find it back, i have already get it back.. when you try to do something for you own but being rejected by others, that kind of feeling, really hurt,yes i know.. after n times of request i think no one will try to do that anymore, because you have already knew that no matter how many times you request end up the response is still the same.. so what for to do it again? we can't do everything for our own in our life, because the life is not only belongs to you, still have others in your life and tell you " yes " and " no "... 

i still have one year to go.. i'm thinking how to make it shorter.. sigh... i really don't want to waste my time but why nobody can understand what i am talking about.. sometimes, i will hate myself.. can't do anything for my own.. can't even make the situation better than now.. drag me out if you have power.... hahaha.. 

mm.. i want to hang out with friends, i want to bbq, i want to travel around with friends.. i can't travel with friends like others do.. that's why i always envy those who can go somewhere and overnight to have fun with a gang of friends.. but, i think i have no this kind of chance.. nobody is here.. =(  *hey people, count me in if u guys wanna go any places to gai gai...) LOL~ 


feel like wanna go to traveling but i know i can't.. 1st my parents not allowed, 2nd i have no money.. -.-'' they went to shanghai but i can't follow, they going to thailand soon but i can't follow too, they going to hongkong after cny but i can't follow too... how nice if i have money.. sigh.. i got nothing now.. i can't go any places that i wanted to go.. darn it!

well, i should get back to assignment now.. stop thinking too much.. you can't change anything so just keep moving on.. tihs! *dun worry, i'm okay..* =)

PhewWWww~ finally i've changed a new template for this corner.. well, i still like the previous template as that was my fav color, but after blogging a period of time i found the blog looked like very down and moody.. and because of the color is blue, it causes all the blogs are very down... C'mon, i'm happy-go-lucky person wey.. though i really had moody sometimes but let bygones be bygones, i have still have to live my life, right? just put it in my deep heart, but doesn't mean i forgot everything.. mm.. new template new start new day coming! xD so,  let's have a look at my new template.. is it looks more girly style? i quite like it, looks comfy too... but the only one thing which confused me is i couldn't add the time on the post.. i wonder why.... fine, i dun really care too much after non-stop changing.. let it be.. =)  so, how's my new template? give some opinions... ( LOL~ don't have to bother me so much, and i know there's no one will bother me so much... wahaha!! )

I feel so tired right now.. after whole day classes, i'm really exhausted... but i wonder if i should go to bed now or continue that stupid assignment? Fine then, i think i better off to bed now, i got morning class on tomorrow.. duh!! i hate it !! >.<''




PS: How many of you like to get a truth answer? Are you satisfied with the answer that you get? The Ugly Truth... How many of  you want to have an ugly truth or you want to have a beautiful falsehood?

A bosom friend is like a four leaf clover: hard to find and lucky to have

gosh~ i still feel so sleepy after so long hours nap...*yawn* dim xun hou ar? xD

A型的人担心明天怎麽过
追求A型要用缠功-----以时间换空间
A型的人------喜欢告诉喜欢的人他在做什麽
A型对潮流是孙悟空------到此一游
A型---------------喜欢走进同一家餐厅，点同样的菜
A型会采取------精挑细选，在配合预算去买
A型的女人爱用〈泪水〉为武器
面子对A型而言是尊严
A型的特质是必须动之以情
A型的唠叨琐碎
如果血型像本书则----A型是章回小说
A型闹情绪时，要即时安抚
A型的忠诚加起来就是最佳的人际关系
A型的人太讲原则，为原则而坚持原则
A型最困难启口是〈不〉字----怕给对方难堪

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and, i also found this... xD

1，当然是O型，O型人撒谎像个吃饭似的，但是撒的谎都是让人马上听出来的；
2，B型，不管三七二十一，B型人绝不承认自己撒了谎
3，AB型，AB型的很少撒谎，但是一旦撒谎，很难看破；
4，A型，A型人的性格就是学不会撒谎；

二，生存能力最强的血型是：
1，B型，具有不屈的生命力的B型人，不管是在什么地方都能生存到底；
2，A型，突然产生生的愿望的A型人，能想出很多种求生的办法；
3，AB型，死了活了都觉得无所谓的类型；
4，O型，不愿意忍受孤独的O型，要是没有对话者的话，多嘴多舌的O型人就想自杀；

三，说话难听的血型是：
1，AB型，AB型不仅不说难听的话，也不说好话；
2，B型，偶尔才不说难听的话（不会说好话）
3，A型，不会说难听的话
4，O型，O型人很想努力地不想说难听的话，但是他们的难听话没有恶意；

四，在学校里最能装相的血型是：
1，O型，O型人必须得装相，要不然不走运；
2，B型，B型人不想装相，但是他们的长相本身就是贼能装的那一类型；
3，A型，不装相，反而始终努力保持和其他人一样的样子；
4，AB型，AB型人最不愿意装相，别人常常感觉不到他们的存在；

五，喜欢读书的血型是：
1，B型，B型人具有天然的集中注意力的能力，所以喜欢读书；
2，A型，具有高贵纯洁气质的A型人喜欢读书；
3，AB型，具有散漫特点的AB型人没有想读书的愿望；
4，O型，喜欢玩耍的O型人，把看书当作可笑的事情；

六，在拘留所里蹲着的血型是：
1，O型，喜欢赌博的是O型人
2，B型，喜欢嫉妒和好胜的是B型人；
3，AB型，把人整迷糊以后，喜欢诈骗和偷盗的是AB型人；
4，A型，在拘留所里很难看见A型人，反而在精神病院里常见；

七，控制欲最强的血型是：
1，B型，B型人的控制欲是很难自我控制；
2，O型，由于过分投入，O型人常常成为有控制欲的人；
3，A型，A型人几乎没有控制欲；
4，AB型，AB型的人讨厌别人干涉自己的生活，也不干涉别人的生活；


八，最能用心做事的血型是：
1，B型，B型人具有天然的高度集中注意力的天分，所以做事很容易用心；
2，O型，O型人原本没有天然的集中注意力的能力，但是为了装相，他们努力用心做事；
3，A型，只有事到临头，A型人才想起用心；
4，AB型，AB型的人，自己觉得很用心做事，但是别人看来，还是很散漫；

九，有口才的血型是：
1，O型，O型人很愿意讲故事，也最能白呼，他们有天然的语言表达能力；
2，B型，B型人说话也有条理性；
3，AB型，为了参与白呼，AB型人愿意先写提纲
4，A型，A型人觉得没必要白呼，也觉得别人白呼跟自己无关；

十，长的可爱的血型是：
1，O型，在O型人中，长的像娃娃类型的很多；
2，A型，与其说可爱，还不如说A型人漂亮（或英俊）；
3，B型，B型人里长的傻忽忽的人或长的比较粗的人比较多；
4，AB型，AB型人长的既不可爱，也不漂亮，但是很有男人（或女人）味道；

十一，最“厚脸皮”的血型是：
1，B型，B型人的说话本身就是厚脸皮；
2，AB型，AB型人的脸皮稍微厚一点；
3，A型，A型人与厚脸皮的人的距离很远；
4，O型，想努力做到厚脸皮的人是O型人；

十二，爱说心里话（秘密）的血型是：
1，O型，O型人心里藏不住话，所以他们生怕别人不知道自己的秘密；
1，B型（共同位于第一位），B型人过分直爽；
2，A型，跟A型人相处的时间长了，他们什么秘密都说出来；
3，AB型，AB型的人不做什么能成为秘密的事情，所以没有什么秘密

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As we go on, we remember 

All the times we had together
And as our lives change, from whatever
We will still be, friends forever

yeap, i went to have a check up again, owing to my knee problem, i think it's still the same after one week medication, so i decided go for a check up as i really worry about it. This time, doctor confirmed that i fall down before and the articular cartilage was injured ( i think it was when i was in JM1 and i fall down from the stairs, i had an exarticulation that time.) and it must be the cause of the reason why my knee painful all the time, consequently, when doctor pressing on my leg and knee, i can feel uneasy and i really heard a grating from my knee, it really shocks me! Doctor told me, that's a bit serious because the joint between the thigh and the lower leg of me are different size now, which means the left one is a bit smaller than the right one, well, actually i felt it before, that's why i always look at my knee and said it looked like "one big one small" . okay fine, now the doctor gave me more medicine to eat, last time only need to take 2 tablets, but now... more than 5tablets! and, all are colourfulll~!! Th doctor said, hope these medicine can cure my knee if not maybe need to have an operation if my knee getting worst. and, doctor told me, must take good care of my lil poor knee, i'm still young and cannot simply hurt my knee or let it getting worst. moreover, i have to wear the knee wrap for a period of time and X running, X jumping, X icey! ( i miz ice-cream so much! :c ) GOSH~! I hope the medicine that cures me.. sigh... really feel sad when i heard this from the doctor.. *long-faced*  hope everything will be fine.. I'll be ok.. I still have lotxa places wanna visit! aus,uk,hk,tw,and jp! hey lil knee, u must +u... GoGoGo~

Today is mid-autumn festival.. it's a traditional day for us ( Chinese lar xD ).. but too bad, it has been raining for whole day and there's no full moon tonight.. the weather is quite cold and wet.. so how to have a party at the yard and holding the lantern to walk around the street? everywhere is so wet and maybe the rain comes again later.. who knows? or i should say because i have no mood to celebrate so i back home first though my parents are still at my auntie house, there's a small gathering. my sister went out with her boy and leave me alone at home. i'm so tired.. but why so tired..? i think it's not really due to my tiredness.. the main reason i think is because of my knee.. sigh.. yes, no doubt, i feel so pain and uneasy right now..  no, since last night... i really can feel the pain when i wanna bending or straightening my knee.. the sense of pain made me couldn't stand well.. that's why i felt uncomfortable when i was at my auntie house, i kept thinking to going home first...=(  sigh... i had finished all the medicine that given by my doctor, and i'm now thinking that should i go back to have a check up again... i'm so worry about my knee.. what should i do now? i don't feel like wanna walking or standing.. especially walking up/down stairs... it will kills me! >.<''  honestly, i really have no mood to celebrate the festival at all.. i have to walk slowly.. the pain is killing me like hell.. all my moods had gone! i feel like wanna cry.... Grrr... =.=''  ( well, i won't cry for that, this is not the first time, but i'm very worry about that, i'm just very angry with myself.. pekcek pekcek.... -_______-  )  i had really fed up with the pain and  i want my knee back!!!