Feli ♥ cious

i got so damn down after lunch. and i wonder why too.

yea. i know the answer and also understand my own feelings now.

but the question is, i dunno how to express my feelings into words.

though i really tryna write something here instead of get someone to talk to me.

apparently, i couldn't write my thoughts here and
also couldn't get someone talk to me.

i've something to talk with whoever can just space
their time for me and listen to me.

whoever? but i dunno where to find the "whoever" around me.

i'm a complicated person. i'm a wack. i think.

i hope there's someone can talk to me, listen to me.

but at the same time, i will politely turned down who comes toward to me.

i don't simply trust anyone, since i was a kid.

i'd rather keep everything to myself, console myself, encourage myself.

and that's why i don't wish to let my mood get down and down,

so, i've sitting at flux cafe for almost 1hour, and get myself busying in the assignment and internet.

i'm a dumbie

i can't do anything for myself.

getting tired of my life now,

however, i really can't do anything to change it or make it better.

how nice if everything can make it better in time,

but good things only happened in fairy tale,

too bad, it's a real world not a fairy tale.

i need a vent.

i need a heart-to-heart's talk.

i need a coze-mate.